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thespian86 · 07-22-2008, 10:04 AM

As always I feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I'm not sure what happened, although I had a mild heart attack when I saw that Will was gone.

The TFP has always been fairly similar to me. While my involvement in it has grown, or perhaps evolved, over time, I still find myself holding on to this notion that if I participate enough, or if I'm witty enough, that I'll be a Willravel, or Cynth, or Manic, Media, Shesus, GG, etc. But I'm not. TFP has always been cliquey, with the popular ones who everyone looks to for a comment, or a wisecrack, and that's part of its charm. At the same time it is its downfall, especially for those of us who feel we're outsiders looking in. I don't think that if I was in a position where I had been removed from the board, that I would be given a free pass; even though I've contributed, at least in my opinion, a lot to the board. A lot being at least as much as I could. I'm invested in this place as much as anyone of you; I read and consider all of your posts and try my best to add something worth reading or considering. I try to be a member in the true meaning of the word here. But I've grown up and matured enough to see the difference between the real TFP and what I wish it was. And for now I'm fine with what this place is, and with how I feel; for now.

Not sure what happened, again, but I appreciate the letter; from both of you. Not because I was involved but because it shows that I care about this place for a reason. It just makes me hope that I won't regret putting effort into caring.

07-22-2008, 10:04 AM	#19 (permalink)
thespian86 change is hard. Location: the green room.	As always I feel like I'm on the outside looking in. I'm not sure what happened, although I had a mild heart attack when I saw that Will was gone. The TFP has always been fairly similar to me. While my involvement in it has grown, or perhaps evolved, over time, I still find myself holding on to this notion that if I participate enough, or if I'm witty enough, that I'll be a Willravel, or Cynth, or Manic, Media, Shesus, GG, etc. But I'm not. TFP has always been cliquey, with the popular ones who everyone looks to for a comment, or a wisecrack, and that's part of its charm. At the same time it is its downfall, especially for those of us who feel we're outsiders looking in. I don't think that if I was in a position where I had been removed from the board, that I would be given a free pass; even though I've contributed, at least in my opinion, a lot to the board. A lot being at least as much as I could. I'm invested in this place as much as anyone of you; I read and consider all of your posts and try my best to add something worth reading or considering. I try to be a member in the true meaning of the word here. But I've grown up and matured enough to see the difference between the real TFP and what I wish it was. And for now I'm fine with what this place is, and with how I feel; for now. Not sure what happened, again, but I appreciate the letter; from both of you. Not because I was involved but because it shows that I care about this place for a reason. It just makes me hope that I won't regret putting effort into caring. __________________ EX: Whats new? ME: I officially love coffee more then you now. EX: uh... ME: So, not much.