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ok, I think you ned to forget how long you've waited or built it up. What you need to ask yourself is, why is it so important to me to wait? Is it so sacred to me that I have to lose my virginity in a "good" way?
The fact is there is no good way. It just happens. It really isn't all that. It's a step, but only one among many others you take in life. Life is no beautiful fairytale. Sex is just sex. You will likely realize that when you actually go for it.
It seems to me that the only reason you're waiting now, is because you've waited and feel foolish to throw away all that "waiting" you did previously.
I say go for it. You don't have to set a time for it. When the feeling is right, just follow through with what you feel like doing. Should be simple enough.
If you can find a good reason to keep waiting, by all means go ahead and wait until you're with someone you think will value that. If not...start enjoying yourself. Life is too short to just sit and wait.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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