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You're actually considering hanging around until February of NEXT YEAR with this guy in your house and life?
No, no...it's worth the money! Get out, now. It sucks to b in debt, but it's even worse to stay in such a fucked up situation for so long.
Better yet, is there any way you can kick him out? I'm serious. If he's not paying his way, and is being abusive to himself and you, why are you sitting there and taking it?
I'm all for a little compassion, but this will ultimately cause you harm, and I'm not talking physical, I'm talking on a deeper level. Can you really get on with your life still living with your abusive, addicted ex, that you have to go home to every night, for almost another year yet?
Clear your head. You must still be hung up on him but it's time to let go. Fuck the money...I'd say your sanity and well-being are more important. And it's not such a huge amount...put it into perspective, it will get paid soon enough.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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