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first off, I purposely avoid all this kind of shit. i've never watched Faces of Death or what not, never watched a snuff film.. the very idea of watching and supporting this stuff makes me feel like i would feel less human.
i've seen a lot of bad shit and a lot of things kind of bother me and slip into my dreams. like spectre, i saw the executions on CNN and it didn't bother me but a few things that have are basically watching some things people have done to animals... slaughtering, maiming and so on.
but the most terrible one event for my pysche would normally not bother me, just being honest.... but it did bother me and has haunted my dreams since.
remember the flu that hit in late 99- early '00? well, if byou did't know know it was a fairly nasty year when he flu was attacking everyone... they had so many patients in Hattiesburg, MS they had to empty even the normal medical clinics and doctor's offices to hold patients. and there were some Comercial airliners who quit taking healthy people and were filling up with sick fol kto fly them to hospitials that had room.
during this time i was in the hospital and i had several people die around me but one woman was -old- and she finally passed.. her daughter lost it totally. she freaked out.. her hollering and crying will never leave my mind and i hear it now as plain as day.. i never imagined a doctor would really seddate someone in a hallway until that day because people were already panicking due to the sickness and deaths as it was, so a doctor gave her a sedative then and there.
i dunno why, but that case scares me shitless.
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