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Could it be that since this relationship is somewhat sexually based that he was telling me something, or more likely that it was a attempt to get me ready so to speak? There is a game being played here that i dont understand. Its something Ive never run into before.
With hindsight and not being blinded it occurs to me that immediately after this he took my upper arm and caressed it in the way he does and then he was pretty much beyond attentive all night. My girlfriend whined a little when he took me to the dance floor and sort of wetted herself she felt so good. For me that would be new-to feel like the best one. Again with hindsight I think I have been the best one before, but have not felt it at the time. Is that whats going on here again? Am I growing and figuring myself out? Am I becoming more myself? Can I feel like the best one? Wow.)
But still, isnt his behavior rather disrespectful or is it just playful and Im too sensitive? Is it sociopathic? Is he on the make (it would not be the first time)? What is his game? Im feeling naive and its uncomfortable.
Wow. This is a totally different perspective. (is this how one changes their values? by seeing the same situation in a different light? is that what i am experiencing, while knowing that I am experiencing it? Wow.)
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