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ok so my family liked to get together and drink, a lot, my dad was alway out to sea, so it was my mom and grandparents. I was treated as an equal as I was growing up at the table and participated in a lot of discussion with them as they drank, eventually, as I became the only sober person in the room, it became apparent that they were getting dumber. like clockwork, every night ended with my grandmother and mother getting into screaming matches over religion, politics, relationships, or finances. Basically my mom couldn't do anything right in the eyes of my grandmother and I watched that relationship unfold every weekend, I eventually picked up on the trend that it was always the alchohol they blamed the next day when they "kiss and make up"
I thought it was sad, that 2 adults, would resort to childish behavior, and it just reminded me that possibly, deep down, maybe thats all we are, and we're just conditioned with our own human version of a HAL. Basically a "soft" translator between our emotions and our mouth that goes through the filters of the other person's "HAL", comes back through it as a response.
the alchohol desolves away at this social conditioning
as far as the topic, I agree, i drink for effect, not for taste. I drink to strip away my "agent smith" who keeps my mouth glued shut in social situations. I have social anxiety and while it may not be the best method, it works. It strips away that stress and lets me chill out and socialize.
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