cmc

Here is a simple and totally effective way to determine your attraction factor:

If you knew you would NEVER have sex (or lovemaking)
with her, would you still be seeking to be in this relationship

If not, then LOVE her by not letting either of you to suffer for anything less than
an enjoyable and passionate and growing relationship. MOVE ON ...

Note - it should be EASY to be with your partner.
She is showing you how she naturally is with you. You state you don't like it.
If you two decide to marry - and she doesn't change ( more physical, more intimate, more playful, etc ...) can you honestly say she fooled you ? I think not. Now -- if you answer YES to the big question above, then help / therapy may do a world of good.

Are you scared you won't find another girl you naturally and easily like to be with ? Cause if you are afraid, or fearful when you think about going back 'out there' - you have to - as Tom Cruise was admonished -- stop shoplifting the pooty ! ( or in your case, stop shoplifting the Idea of shop lifting the pooty !

< I wish you all the best, think it through -- remember - IT SHOULD NOT BE HARD ! You both deserve a totally satisfying relationship. And you can't both be satisfied if one of you is NOT Satisfied - and that's you ! >