nineotwofour

So i posted about this girl before, how shes the ultimate catch especially in terms of looks and such and that we were best friends and then we hookedup, well we hookedup again like 6 months later. But now we are having MAJOR problems. First off we are both young, she is in highschool im in college 1 year differnce, yet the school im at has an awful ratio, plus the girls that are here are taken by the frats or pretty unattractive. So im still stuck on this girl back home. Our huge problem is i htink that she makes me keep what happens with us very private and all to myself, inside i feel ashamed that she doesnt want ppl to know shes hookedup with me, but ive told a few close ppl to me. well 2 days after we hookedup she wanted to see me before i left back for college, well that same day a friend of hers said someone at a party told them they heard i fucked her, and she got really mad at me, the funy part is i didnt say anything to this person, they just were talking to a friend of hers that knew them through me, its a fucked up ordeal. ANyways i talk to this person and i get proof i never told them such, and she believed me, but again i didnt let it go and i guess i annoyed the shit out of the girl that i like. Well recently i was talking to her and she denied she hookedup with me at all. And then i waslike i still have some of those dirty mesages u sent me on facebook, and she called me a fucking piece of shit and she said she knew she couldnt trust me, and you know why i told her that i still had those messages? becuase i wanted to give her my email and password so she could delete them. The worst part is, i told her to take it all back all that nasty shit she said and she walsiek maybe if u give me the password and email, and so i did and she did take it back. But shes just been a total bitch to me latley.

The funy shit is, im going to be in the airport at the same time she is, becuase shes flying out as im flying in for spring break. and she acutally was like looking forward to wanting to see me at the airport. But that was 2 days ago, this was today. Im so sad and torn apart becuase i asked her if we were friends with benefits and stuff and she got all pissed and of course said no. Yet when we hookedup she said it was teh best thing ever when i ate her out, and blah blah blah, huge amounts of extremely dirty txts and facebook messages that like she told me i had to delete. Like idk what to do with her, she really is fucking wiht my head and my heart and its fucking with my life. And ppl have told me to get over her, yet i can't im way into this girl, and god i have the smallest yet strongest hope inside of me that things will work out for the best, becuase ive fallen for this girl, and the damage she has done to me internally isnt anything close to what i can expect if this in the end works out awfully. shes not the type that u ignore and she wants you back, she is so damn busy with like 10 million guys from everywhere talk to her all teh time. Like shes that incredibly irresistable girl that every guy wants to get with but never can becuase shes really hard to get with, its funny, becuase i love the fact htat i have, it helps my personal confidence, yet the fact that she told me i cant tell anyone relaly hurts me.

What the fuck do i do, becuase im at the point of a fucking breakdown becuase im so hurt right now. shes being such a bitch to me, and if i try to get on her goodside ill just end up annoying the fuck outta her.