starburst

Sincere thanks to everyone who responded expressing their concern for me and your thoughtful comments. All strongly stated that I was exposing myself to physical and emotional damage by continuing to surrender complete control.

You were unanimous in urging me to stop participating in this dangerous type of sex unless I was given control of the degree of pain I was required to endure. I now realize I had not only surrendered control of my body to my husband, but also my will and emotions.

Many of you were also correct in pointing out that my deep anxiety about this kind of extreme domination was evident in my posts. As much as I loved being dominated and pushed to extend my limits, if I am honest, I was greatly upset about the level of pain and my husband's exhiliaration in seeing me emotionally break down from the pain.

Now, I must summon my courage and resolve and rebuild our sexlife into a mutually loving and satisfying relationship. Thank you all for caring and offering such helpful advice.