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I like being controlled during sex and knowing my husband is frantic to have my body. I am uncomfortable with excessive force and prolonged pain.
Occasionally he has a compelling desire to see me helpless and in great pain. He says, "It is an inredible turn-on." One of his favorite procedures for "hard sex" is to penetrate me anally. Then positions me standing in front of a full-length mirror nude except for heels. Remaining inside me, he inserts a dildo into my vagina. He then continues moving to a larger ones until I cannot take anything bigger. He then forcefully thrusts until I am sobbing in tears.
His other "turn-on" is penetrating me vaginally from behind, again while nude, in heels and standing in front of the mirror. He then wraps his hands together behind my head and forces it down and at the same time thrusts forcefully. The mirror allows him to watch the pain on my face and the tears flowing. It is the pain and tears that turn him on, I am sure.
Each time he tries to push me to endure being held like this longer. When he finally releases me, he lavishes me with praise about how I am able to sexually satisfy him. I am happy to please him, but am growing concerned that his appetite for this kind of sex continues to become more intense.
Am I endangering myself or should I concentrate on enabling myself to withstand his growing desires?
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