I've been recently thinking about all this after I watched a few episodes of "The Universe" on the History Channel and a show about the Hubble Telescope.
The stuff in these shows seriously blew my mind. One thing that really hit me was a picture that Hubble took of a patch of sky no bigger than a pin-point when viewed from earth and it had thousands of galaxies in just that small area of the sky. They explained how they can trace the trajectories of those galaxies all the way back to the Big Bang singularity.
So it got me thinking about how and why the Universe was created. How and why our planet was created and how and why are we here.
I just can't buy that the universe was randomly created in a massive explosion from a single point of infinite mass. I do agree wit the Big Bang theory because of the evidence that points to it but what I'm hung up on is why it happened and what was before it happened. What was around the singularity before the Universe was created? Was there some other form of existence before the Universe as we know it was made? These questions really bother me.
I simply cannot believe that our entire existence was a random chance.
That being said, I'm not a really religious person probably because I was forced to go to sunday school and church and it was more of a "chore" rather than something I genuinely wanted to do. That and my parents would be "conveniently religious" around Easter and Christmas and such but would not go to church regularly. Anyway I never really saw the point in it all.
I'm pretty sure I believe in God. I say that because I cannot make up my mind given my experience with religion and my knowledge of science. Recently I've been thinking about giving religion another shot mainly because of how these shows got me thinking.
I'm just so torn on it, if God created the universe and Earth and us did anything created God? How could a being simply exist in some realm outside of ours? But at the same time I just can't believe that everything we know exists purely by chance.
I don't think any form of religion or scientific theories can help me with this. It makes me feel so insignificant compared to everything else in the Universe. I mean think about it, all those thousands of galaxies in that one small part of the sky have billions of stars and planets. You're telling me that we are alone in the Universe and we are just here by chance meant to scrape out a living in a vast nothing?
I don't know this is all very troubling to me. I need answers damnit.
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