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Augi: Yes, it's obvious to me too that it's all tied together, but there are certain things on this road that can be piecemealed out to think and reason about. It's funny that really, in many ways I feel more in my comfort zone and happier than I have for many moons. I think I have felt more alive in the last 5.5 months than in the last 7-10 years. We'll see if it lasts. I'm hopeful, but skeptical.
An interesting thing I've experienced over and over again is a feeling of disbelief in what people will really do and how they really think. What I may have thought of as fictional or humorous because people wouldn't really do or think that way in real life (not in this century!) proves to be true. We're a funny bunch. I realize now that no matter how incredibly stupid, cruel, or fictionalish, if it can be thought of it's probably been done by someone. It's a letting go of naivete. It is freeing in a way, kind of life affirming, and it makes me laugh and feel a part of the world. On the other hand, I wonder about becoming too cynical. I like thinking that man is basically good.
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