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fro2020 · 01-25-2008, 11:53 PM

Damn.

What a topic.

My $.02:

First time was when I was 13. Had no idea what I was doing, but I found that humping the mattress felt pretty damn good.

Did it the next night again to see if I could replicate it, or if it was just a one time deal.

After that it was pretty much an everyday type thing.

Funny part (or sad, depending on your perspective) - I didn't know what it was that I was doing.

My attitude was pretty much ambivalence - until I found out from a church leader that what I was doing was a sin.

I can honestly say that I have never felt as much guilt in my life as I did after that moment. Was a pretty heavy load for a 15 year old to take. I felt as though I had done something akin to murder in the eyes of God.

That guilt stayed with me for years. Don't really know if I have still completely shaken it.

Did it stop me? No.

Is that a testament to the sex drive of the adolescent male of the human species? I'd have to say yes.

But the more I did it, the more guilty I felt.

Basically - it sucked.

01-25-2008, 11:53 PM	#61 (permalink)
fro2020 Still crazy after all these years Location: Norther Cal	Damn. What a topic. My $.02: First time was when I was 13. Had no idea what I was doing, but I found that humping the mattress felt pretty damn good. Did it the next night again to see if I could replicate it, or if it was just a one time deal. After that it was pretty much an everyday type thing. Funny part (or sad, depending on your perspective) - I didn't know what it was that I was doing. My attitude was pretty much ambivalence - until I found out from a church leader that what I was doing was a sin. I can honestly say that I have never felt as much guilt in my life as I did after that moment. Was a pretty heavy load for a 15 year old to take. I felt as though I had done something akin to murder in the eyes of God. That guilt stayed with me for years. Don't really know if I have still completely shaken it. Did it stop me? No. Is that a testament to the sex drive of the adolescent male of the human species? I'd have to say yes. But the more I did it, the more guilty I felt. Basically - it sucked. __________________ I'm not prejudiced...I hate everyone equally.