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She, on the other hand, is pretty much going to be out of my life altogether. Not out of petty vengeance, but the fact that I need separation. In this case, I have to do what feels right for me, and that includes not dealing with her anymore. I also need seek out some therapy. This whole thing has revealed larger issues in my own psyche that need the assistance of a professional to resolve. I should be confident enough in myself that this kind of thing would not hurt this bad. After all, it's not like I was in love with her. I was attracted and interested, and I cared about her, but that's it. I should be able to dust myself off, and get back in the game. I know that I just can't do it. I feel like the victim of adultery, and that is NOT at all what happened. I am playing the victim card when it just isn't justified. Something else is clearly going on and this is just symptomatic.
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Wow, props to you for figuring this out on your own. Seriously. It takes a great deal of honesty to admit to one's self that one needs help. Recently I've just been able to come to terms with the fact that I may need some therapy as well. It isn't easy, I tell you.