roachboy

this pains me.
i can see the cover of that record.

but i always hated dan fogelberg's music, every last second of it, and so i guess i feared the possibility that the record could at some potential moment be taken out of the dust jacket and, worse, far far worse, played, with the result that i have repressed the title. perhaps dan fogelberg is a Persecuting Other. so that means that there is some paranoid relationship between myself and his photograph on record covers. if this was really done with, i wouldn't be able to recognise the cause of my repression as a former paranoid relation to the photograph of dan fogelberg on a record cover because that relation would have become indifferent to me and so its meanings would have dropped away and so i wouldnt be able to use anything about my former paranoid relation to photographs of dan fogelberg on record covers to connect anything to anything else so that means that i must still be beholden to the paranoid circuit i once constructed around the photograph on record covers of dan fogelberg.

that means it can still hurt me.

now if the pattern holds, this should result in an extended period of repetitive activity.
if i post this 6 times, assume things have taken a dive.

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a gramophone its corrugated trumpet silver handle
spinning dog. such faithfulness it hear

it make you sick.

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