I find myself less and less inclined to write out long winded responses to topics asserting why something is wrong or right. Typically heated topics which deal with politics, religion, sexuality, science, or arts just seem to sinking beneath me.
I used to CARE about debating my perception on issues, but I'm finding myself just backing off everything now. There are a number of threads I could participate in on this forum, a lot of them where people will bust out references and turn a small topic in to a 5 page rant on the virtues of XYZ and the evils of ABC. I guess after being online for so long, since I was 16 or so, since IRC was king, since email was a "novelty"... You just start to get tired of the "trend" of human interaction. you start to feel like it's all an elaborate dance and it becomes predictable. Society itself, a social construct, has rules, and it just seems so easy to dance around them and see through them for what they are.
I mean it feels like I've just learned to accept the fact that it doesn't matter what anyone else feels or thinks about something, if it matters to me, it will continue to do so, and if it doesn't it will continue to not matter to me.
I remember early in my childhood having my mother and grandmother trying to preach to me the "God is good" bit, having me try to believe in religion, and I did a bit of my own digging around, asking around, talking to people and eventually gaining access to theology type reading materials coupled with something as simple as a history book which just led me to my own particular realistic perspective on reality.
Religion used to be a huge topic for me, but it's such a non issue to me now, because i'm convinced that devoting seconds of my mortality, my brain cycles, to a subject that has the world chasing it's own tail looking for the meaning of life yet never finding the answer is a waste. I made the same conclusion when I quit MMO's and honestly, I just am at the point where I don't even think about it anymore. Religion, Politics, hot topics are all just reaching a freezing point to me now. I don't care.
more accurately, I may care, I just don't care enough to try to convince you to see my point of view on the matter, maybe i'm just too stuck up to think I could find common ground with anyone on any subject any more.
I started a thread in tilted music and it pretty much went as expected. It wasn't so much that I was serious in my inquiry, I knew inserting a negative descriptor of a popular genre I just don't care about would cause people to get defensive. People fell all over themselves to voice their views and be like "no no, it's like THIS, not like THAT" and this is just why I just don't care.
To me, everything is relative to me, I am the center of my own universe, and a lot of people function in the same matter merely by proxy of being in a society that functions as such. You go to work to make your money to take care of your needs, and if you say you're taking care of a child or a family, it's still your needs isn't it?
I dunno. I think maybe the tone of this thread may just spark even more disinterest from whatever responses people decide to drop in here. I'm not really in the mood to write any more.