So i visited here about a few months ago, and posted a topic here:
http://www.tfproject.org/tfp/showthread.php?t=124504 where i got very good responses. Now I want to give everyone an update and ask for more advice if i could.
I advise you might want to skim the other topic first because this might sound kind of weird without that as a pretense.
Ok, well since I'm in college I've been home twice, once for fall break and once for thanksgiving. For fall break i saw her on the second day i was in town and then almost every single day after that. Thanksgiving break that just ended yesterday, i saw her the second day (she skipped school to see me) and the last day, she got a new job and has been quite busy. Anyways everything with this girl has been insane lately, i fucked up the trust between us, yet she still welcomes me back and tells me she doesn't care. I still think of her all the time just like i did 2 months ago, the only difference now is that i feel like i can control myself and not talk to her or try to talk to her for longer periods of time. The first day we hung out it was just us two for about 3 hours. We did nothing except sit in my car and talk and get a bite to eat at the mall. She seemed to have a good time though, because she never stopped talking about her life and giving me every little detail about whats been going on with her. At the end though, as she was about to leave the car, she gave me a goodbye hug, and when i let go she held on and slowly backed off and looked me in the eyes, as if i was supposed to kiss her. At the moment i just didn't have the balls to take a chance, i didn't want to make a move i might have misread. Anyways i saw her one time after that and then I'm gone again back to college. My concern now is was that my only chance? If she really did want to kiss me will she give me another chance when i go back home? Also my birthday is during when i next get back, and she told me shes getting me a gift. Which is kind of weird because shes never gotten anyone a gift before, i mean for a guy.
I really don't know how to read her. She used to not like to talk about what happened with me and her over the summer. About that night i went down on her. But now if i bring it up she goes with the conversation and i guess respects it. Maybe shes just maturing up, who knows, i actually hope thats what it is.
So tell me what am i to do? lol