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From someone who has lost many people close to me, ask yourself one thing. Is temporary peace of mind worth losing a friend over? Yes, this situation is a hard one to deal with, and all these negative feelings are play hell with you. But is insulting a friend and a person you care about on such a deep level the way to go? You will only hate yourself in the end if you take this course man. For what you lost, what you did, and how you made her feel. You want to fix this, you need to do a couple of things. First, start finding ways to spend time away from there. Just go down to the coffee shop to study for a few hours a night if you have to. If you can find another place to live without throwing both your lives in to chaos, even better. Time apart is the key. Second, sit her down one on one and talk to her. Simple truth is, your confession may have made her very nervous and bit uncomfortable. So, tell her you are very sorry if you made her feel weird, but you feel what you feel and you had to let her know, out of respect for the person she is. Second, tell you understand if these feelings are one way and that you are sorry if you been acting like an ass. Above all, let her know you love her as a friend first and foremost, and you do not want that to change. Your issues here are yours, and you need to work through them. If that means a little less time together for a while so you can sort yourself and save the friendship, so be it. A true friend is rare thing. Don't fuck it up. And if you do, don't put the blame on her for being a healthy young woman. If she pulls some sort of dirty underhanded shit on you, blame away. But until then, this is your bag, not hers. Keep that in mind if you want to fix this.
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Bad spellers of the world untie!!!
I am the one you warned me of
I seem to have misplaced the bullet with your name on it, but I have a whole box addressed to occupant.
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