I can't say i regret having said what i said either, because I think it would've been more dishonest to keep it in/unhealthy. Yet i think she could've handled the situation a little better, I'm telling you guys she got really offended, like as if I had wronged her somehow by telling her that. So i was hurt by it, in more ways than one. So I guess now its just a combination of being hurt by that shit, jealousy, and feeling like she really hasn't done anything to try to improve the situation between us. I'm the only one who's been trying, granted my jealousy and the shit that I say contradicts this, but in the end all I really want is just peace. I want my peace of mind back and I guess calling her a slut just makes it easier for me to let go of her; even though that is the last thing in the world I would ever want to call her. Understand?
Its kind of like having to make yourself hate someone because you're too attatched to them in the other direction. I guess I still haven't found a more mature/constructive way to deal with it yet..but I'm working on it. I just need to find a new girlfriend, and maybe some new friends, as they say sometimes change is good.
Last edited by sphynx; 11-21-2007 at 12:38 PM..
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