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Originally Posted by soma
Why is that I'm so interested in learning about what she's up to when all it does make me incredibly depressed?
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Because you still have hope that things will work out someday.
This is what happens when you try to distract yourself with activities like working out and seeking out replacement pussy... she'll keep creeping back into your thoughts b/c you haven't made the effort to really convince yourself that IT IS OVER. That's the problem with the whole "I'll show her" motivation you have going on is that, deep down, your probably thinking that if you do all these things to improve yourself, she'll come back to you.
You're in a tough spot because your life still centers around her, even though she's no longer a part of it. You simply need to accept the fact that she will never be yours again. Repeat that to yourself multiple times a day if you need to, but you need to shift your center away from her somehow.