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I was somebody's bitch once.
I'll never be anyone's bitch again. I am my own Bitch--I don't need to be anyone else's.
The point is, you have to go through the wringer before you learn that lesson. We've all been there. We've all done what you're doing. A favorite quote of mine goes, "Wisdom is learning from other people's mistakes." And as much as we would hope that you could learn from our lessons, and be wise, we also all know that this is one of those lessons you have to learn yourself for it to really be true.
One morning, years from now, you'll wake up and think, "I'm not her bitch any more."
I will confess to this: the ex whose bitch I was lived in an apartment next to mine a couple years ago, a few years after we broke up. Though all that time had passed, and I was in another relationship with more than a few in between, the sight of him still disturbed me.
Now, though I have said you must learn this lesson yourself, I will also say: No one deserves the kind of emotional abuse you are allowing yourself to be put through. Stop being a doormat.
My advice: Get an advance on your pay if necessary, pack up, and move. Now. Get a new cell phone while you're at it. Then you'll be set. You do not deserve this drama--you are so much better than that.
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If I am not better, at least I am different. --Jean-Jacques Rousseau
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