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zxello · 10-14-2007, 06:34 PM

11/22/2004 : The day world of warcraft is released, the day I became addicted to yet ANOTHER massive multiplayer online roleplaying game (mmorpg).

Off and on from that day forward I have been wholly addicted to my heroin, even when I would 'quit', it would always be there in the back of my mind. I have quit so many times and made so many excuses for that game that I joke about it now it an almost morbid humor.

10/13/2007 : The day I reinstalled WoW after more than an 8 month hiatus. I spent the rest of the night before bed debating on whether or not to reactivate my account and login. I disturbed multiple friends with weak-hearted pleas to help me. All fell on sarcastic ears; ears that thought it was a joke, ears that laughed back at me and jovially egged me on to re-enter that digital world.
I pass the night with sleep...

10/14/2007 : I wake up thinking 'Good job! You didn't subscribe last night, maybe you should uninstall it and be done with it.' Then in the back of my mind I get this feeling... a feeling that will NOT subside, an anxiety that is all but crippling - DO NOT UNINSTALL.
I distract myself with XBOX360, it is my day off of work, my girlfriend is feeling sick and I can't find comfort in her embrace. So I leave the house to go finish some chores I knew needed to be completed and using them as an excuse to be away from the computer, in the back of my mind knowing I would come back at some point. All this time I've told my less-than-supportive friends that it 'is just a matter of time until I break'. This is an addiction, absolutely an addiction.

I made it 2 hours. Finished my chore outside and returned to the comfort of my townhouse. Upon returning to my desk I once again attempt to distract myself with XBOX360, which only lasts so long. An hour passes, 2... I seek out the comfort of my old friend that I use to play with, hoping that he-to has quit. Alas, the first thing he mentions is about that addiction; he is playing as we speak.

That's it, I can't take it anymore. I'm bored out of my mind.
(Account Management > Reactivate account). I spend the next 2-3 hours organizing my interface and trying to get things to work. I finally get to to playing, I go out on my character to continue the 'grind'.

15 Minutes later I exit the game, cancel my account, and ask my buddy if he knows anyone that wants to buy an account for cheap, just to get it off my hands.

My addiction has broken. I truely feel that I have overcome it this time. This is not to say that I am completely free of it, but it is a large step. I have hope. This rant / testimonial ends just as abruptly as the experience it details. Feel free to discuss, I would love it.

10-14-2007, 06:34 PM	#1 (permalink)
zxello Addict Location: P-Town, WA	My addiction... My heroin. 11/22/2004 : The day world of warcraft is released, the day I became addicted to yet ANOTHER massive multiplayer online roleplaying game (mmorpg). Off and on from that day forward I have been wholly addicted to my heroin, even when I would 'quit', it would always be there in the back of my mind. I have quit so many times and made so many excuses for that game that I joke about it now it an almost morbid humor. 10/13/2007 : The day I reinstalled WoW after more than an 8 month hiatus. I spent the rest of the night before bed debating on whether or not to reactivate my account and login. I disturbed multiple friends with weak-hearted pleas to help me. All fell on sarcastic ears; ears that thought it was a joke, ears that laughed back at me and jovially egged me on to re-enter that digital world. I pass the night with sleep... 10/14/2007 : I wake up thinking 'Good job! You didn't subscribe last night, maybe you should uninstall it and be done with it.' Then in the back of my mind I get this feeling... a feeling that will NOT subside, an anxiety that is all but crippling - DO NOT UNINSTALL. I distract myself with XBOX360, it is my day off of work, my girlfriend is feeling sick and I can't find comfort in her embrace. So I leave the house to go finish some chores I knew needed to be completed and using them as an excuse to be away from the computer, in the back of my mind knowing I would come back at some point. All this time I've told my less-than-supportive friends that it 'is just a matter of time until I break'. This is an addiction, absolutely an addiction. I made it 2 hours. Finished my chore outside and returned to the comfort of my townhouse. Upon returning to my desk I once again attempt to distract myself with XBOX360, which only lasts so long. An hour passes, 2... I seek out the comfort of my old friend that I use to play with, hoping that he-to has quit. Alas, the first thing he mentions is about that addiction; he is playing as we speak. That's it, I can't take it anymore. I'm bored out of my mind. (Account Management > Reactivate account). I spend the next 2-3 hours organizing my interface and trying to get things to work. I finally get to to playing, I go out on my character to continue the 'grind'. 15 Minutes later I exit the game, cancel my account, and ask my buddy if he knows anyone that wants to buy an account for cheap, just to get it off my hands. My addiction has broken. I truely feel that I have overcome it this time. This is not to say that I am completely free of it, but it is a large step. I have hope. This rant / testimonial ends just as abruptly as the experience it details. Feel free to discuss, I would love it. __________________ Old signature just wasn't doing it for me anymore, so now I have this new one. It's equally as stupid but at least it looks really long. I'm probably just going to keep typing until I run out of things to babble about and see how many people actually read this. I once ran down a hill, fell down and hurt my elbow; my mom said I would be ok, she kissed it and made it all better. I've run out of things to say now, so if you have read this whole thing, congratulations you get a gold star!