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I dunno, I don't think I can handle this anymore. I'm emotionally drained. You're too fucked up to even know what you want from me in terms of a relationship or friendship. So maybe I shouldn't deal with having either from you. Not to say you're a bad friend, you're the best friend I have probably ever had. But it's fucking up my world to think and feel about you the way that I do and I have to pull back before I become fucked up over this.
I was under the impression that you would be able to think clearly having been single for any respectable amount of time. But considering you keep trying to throw yourself at Greg, I don't think you and I stand much of a chance at this point. You still don't know what it is to be single. You're still piecing together your 3's from multiple people, you're getting fulfillment from me, from him, and god, who knows who else?
Timeline or no, before or after this last weekend, it doesn't really matter to me.
I'm helping you promote your shitty habits as long as you keep thinking i'm just going to "be there" for you.
you don't believe enough in me to commit to an actual attempt at a relationship with me again anyways, you're either distrusting that I have the potential to meet your needs or you're a fucking coward who's afraid to feel "whole" towards one person and has to draw on multiple people to keep your distance from all of them. I don't know.
I don't have anything else to say, short and sweet I suppose. I'm probably going to regret being so harsh, but i'm hurt, and I don't know what else to do to cope with how I feel about you and what you choose to do with that emotion.
bye.
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