abaya

Yep. Which is even rougher going than it was as a Christian. It was nice knowing that I was forgiven for all my sins... but these days, I know I have to work to reverse or lessen the harm I've done to other people and myself (which is my equivalent of "sin"). And work is a lot harder than forgiveness... which is how it should be, in my world. Also, as JinnKai said, there's no afterlife, so there's a lot more impetus to make THIS one worth it, every last minute of it.

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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran