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I think she's just terrified and quite frankly, I can understand that.
there is a lot to lose, we're back in the position of your stereotypcal "Scariest relationship decision ever: which is to say, choosing to date your best friend.
which is to say, quite possibly, her only real friend in her mind.
Theres really nothing else for me to do though, i'm not looking for a lesson out of this. I'm focused on the logistics side of my life at the moment, finding a job about 50 miles west of here, and a place to live to go with it. gaining residency status in the state of washington so schooling options open up (cheaper in state tuition) and getting myself back in school
she's an auxillary concern to me because she's 300 miles away, I hadn't even been bothering myself with it since the last time I posted about it (check how old this thread is)
but i'm sure people understand, emotion is like bloodflow. You can have a numbness in your limb and once the obstruction is removed, you start to get feeling back, uncontrollably, you can't choose to stay numb.
this all seems so stupid to me though.
doesn't it seem obvious?
I love her
She loves me
you'd think that would be enough, but fucking no,things have to be complicated.
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