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Just broken up
My boyfriend of two and a half years and I just broke up last night. It was very hard to do. I have been unhappy the entire summer and I have been ignoring it. It just finally reached the point that I could no longer ignore it and something had to be done. I love him dearly and that is what makes it so hard. You are probably thinking well why don't you work it out. Well, we have been "working it out." We have problems and I will tell him how I feel and his repsonse is "I love you honey, we can work through this." I am just tired of trying to work through it all the time, and he doesn't take it seriously untill things get really bad. Several monthes ago we had this same problem and I found myself liking another guy as a result of it, granted nothing happened with this other guy, my boyfriend and I almost broke up but decided to work it out. The biggest problem we have is that we don't have enough time together, we are both in college and extremely busy. I am a mechanical engineering major and his is computer science, he graduates this fall and I am starting my junior year as we speak. My classes are already crazy and I barely have time for myself. I just realized that I am never going to stop being busy the next two years of my life and I can't handle this relationship when I am not getting out of it what I need, and when I don't have the time to commit to it. But breaking up with him was the hardest thing I have ever done. I love him with my heart and soul and the thought of being without him is enough to make me burst into tears. I know he loves me. I didn't want to hurt him but this is hurting me too. I know I am not happy and he just seems to take me for granted and I couldn't handle this any longer. I would like to write more on the situation but I am posting this between classes and time has run out.
I would just like some incite from all of you and any thoughts on how to help with the healing process.
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