BigDonkey2

So I know my girlfriend hates porn in all shapes and sizes. However, being a guy, I love it. I don't know if she quite understands that the only reason I use it is to get off and not because I fantasize about women other than her. So here's my predicament. She told me she hates porn a long time ago (we've been together for a year) but doesn't know that I still watch it. A little background info, I play baseball and am away for 5 months of the year. She was with me for about a month or so and then she left. While she was here I didn't watch it at all because she was here with me and I didn't need it. We're apart at the moment but I'm going home in a week and a half and we'll be together, so I won't need it. The only time I watch it is when she's not with me. I told her I would stop last time (which was before I left for baseball) because she got REALLY upset and insecure when I told her I was still watching it while I was still at home. My recent phone conversation with her prompted this post because she asked me, which leads me to the question, am I wrong for telling her I'm not watching it when I really am when she's not with me? Is it kind of what she doesn't know won't hurt her type deals? Also, a little side note, her 'reward' for me telling her I'm not watching porn are sexy pics and webcam chats *wink wink* The sexy pics however are only one set and she refuses to take more and we've done the webcam thing a few times before. I know she hates porn, but I need to get mine while she's gone. What is a guy to do?