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Originally Posted by pai mei
I am 26 years old , it's 7 am here, I just arrived home from a party. I feel really empty, I don't know why. I have the feeling that my life has ended somehow, I miss the times when no money were needed for having fun. Maybe I just become an adult at 26  What am I going to do now : job , sleep, job, sleep, die ?  |
Wow, you sound like me quite a bit. I've literally ruined my credit and put myself deep in debt just to keep friends, and more specifically, a girl around, but I have so much anxiety over finances now that I wonder if I would rather be alone and yet financially stable.
Parties can be depressing if you leave them wondering why everyone else was so happy and you weren't. I've felt that way before.
...and yes, sometimes the simple joys in life are the more contemporary. I remember living with my parents and younger brother. I lived with them until I was 23. I never had a girlfriend (still don't, but I have partied), never went out, and never had any friends. All I did was buy stuff......... but I remember simple, subtle things like just hanging out with the family (when we weren't arguing), running around in the backyard with the dogs (five), and just chatting with my bro (even though he is 8 years younger than me), on anything and everything. In the past year I've done a lot of treacherous things, things I wanted to do when I couldn't do them, but now with an empty wallet, lots of debt, lots of drama with (former) friends, and having to worry constantly about a girl who will never permanently be mine, I'm ready to just go back to simplicity.