Babe, I feel for you. I was in a similar (but not so bad) situation growing up, myself.
So, today's advice from me to you is this: Become a single-minded animal about getting that driver's license! Do WHATEVER you have to do (and I mean *whatever*) to get that. Tell your parents its a way for you to do all the running around for them and take care of them the way you should have been all this time, and haven't, because you're a bad person (and of course this is a total lie, but it doesn't matter. We are talking SURVIVAL here).
Don't let them know how important this is to you.
Then you can progress to your next step, which is getting out of the house. If you have to leave everything behind (except for your driver's license, ha!), be ready. Contact local homeless shelters, tell them about your situation and see if they can help you.
At some point though, you gotta ask yourself...even if they find out you are leaving, what's the worst that could happen? They yell at you? Say mean things? Who cares? They do that all the time, and they won't ever stop. There is NOTHING you can do to make them stop, ever. So stop trying, and at least you'll be yelled at for making your own decisions.
The thing is you gotta want to do this, rather than sit in a puddle of your parent's emotional vomit, and wishing for something better to fall on you from the sky, OK? Because you are the ONLY ONE who can change your life.
You got the desire. That's half the battle. Now go make your way.
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"Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath.
At night, the ice weasels come." -
Matt Groening
My goal? To fulfill my potential.
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