Shauk, man... *smack*
Listen, there's two very important things at stake here. Your heart being the first, and the heart of the girl you are obviously very in love with being the second. If you've detailed things here honestly, than what more advice can you be seeking than that which you already know. Sure, you're a bit scared. Maybe you're scared she'll say no. Rejection always hurts. Maybe you're scared she'll say yes, in which case despite all your desires you may not know how to handle things. But, love is love, and having a definite defined friendship behind it only helps, not hinders.
Listen, we all make mistakes. We all have standards. We all have ideal ideas in our very insignificant human brains. Those ideals intertwine with our hearts, and we aren't always able to really make sense of things. Questioning yourself, however, only leads to unfulfilled wishes. Tell her! Tell her everything! Tell her that you adore her friendship, that you are so happy that you've been able to stay close. Tell her also, though, that you are still head over heels in love with her, that you endure sleepless nights wondering about being with her again. Tell her that bygones can be bygones and that you feel you both deserve another chance to be with each other.
Shauk, after several very long relationships that ended in very bad breakups, I learned something very important when I met my wife. You just have to go with it. No matter what your mind may be saying, if your heart says it's time... then it's time!
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