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I have been in a similar position and I just think its not right. No-one should have to subject themselves to that kind of emotional abuse. Theres just things you don't say to another person if you love them. I don't care if he's more impulsive or if in the heat of the moment he says things just to hurt you. That is not love. It's selfish and cruel.
Even if he is better now and truly committed, I think the fact that you've posted here says "I love him, but I'm not sure I can forgive him". If you can't forgive it, you need to move on, otherwise you will only resent him, continue to doubt yourself and just dig yourself into a deeper hole.
I also believe that someone who loves you will never make fun of you or belittle you in such a cruel way. Things like that mark people for life. A loving relationship is built on mutual support and understanding. Otherwise it just becomes a weight that drags you down and doesn't allow you to believe in your own potential fully.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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