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I've gone again... the ride isn't fun anymore.
My standards apply to ethics, philosophy, spirituality, personal culture and discipline, intelligence to comprehend and discuss the aforementioned topics, cleanliness, I dunno, god, this list could go on for a long time, in any case... Considering the average woman I meet nowadays isn't interested in anything beyond getting her skank on at some dive bar, doesn't think about anything beyond her favorite characters in xyz daytime drama, or just plain is too insecure to discuss anything that would actually indicate "hey, I have a personality" I'm just burnt out on it. Basically, I tend to find the people who flock to the "meeting" areas for available people tend to be available for a reason. The ones that actually show any promise are taken.
I don't want to spawn this into some odd off topic thread but... I guess its like... I had something special to me, I hate the thought of comparing my ex to inanimate services but, its like being born with dialup, then having cable internet for 6 years, then losing it. like starting with a 13 inch monitor, getting and having a 17+ wide screen flat panel for 6 years, then having it taken away.
sure... youll "manage' just fine without those little perks, but god damn if it isn't painful when your standard of living just tanks the big one.
everyone I meet is like "hi, i'm dialup" and I just weep on the inside and question myself for days and day as if I'm being too judgemental or if people are really just that stupid.
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