mandy

oh so true!!! and you're not putting me on the spot at all. i too thought about this exact post while posting this one and it's terrible to think that only just a few days before i felt that way.

but, here is how it is now...

both of us had a bit of good news for me this week. i finally got a job. an internship, but a job nonetheless.

and experiencing this joviality, i felt that none of what i was feeling could be felt to its full extent if i did not have healer in my life. and i told him this. and we laughed and cried together...ok, i cried

but after all that, i suggested we find a couples counselor or someone who can help us communicate better, our feelings and thoughts about each other and what we're going through.

he agreed and so, that's what we're trying to do now. we're just taking baby steps.

i don't feel any less for healer after what happened and after i posted that birthday thread. i still am in love with him and i still love him with every fibre of my being...and that will never change no matter how bad things get between us.well, for me at least.

thank you guys so much for all you advice and help...it was much noted and even more so appreciated.

i will keep you posted, mind the pun

and i think that all you guys views and advices made me realise that maybe i should stop expecting more, i shouldn't be as demanding on him as i am and i should appreciate what i've got because there are some people out there who don't have it as good as i do.

you guys are the bomB!!!

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