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Wow, I don't understand why you would put up with this at only one month of dating. How long was your longest relationship? It sounds to me like you both have some growing up to do. I went through some trust issues with my boyfriend after we had been together for over a year. But we worked on it because we knew we were in love with each other. However in my opinion, once the trust is that far eroded it takes a very long time to rebuild. Almost like an equation, you have to figure out how long you've been together versus how long it will take to rebuild. Also, there's always this tiny drop of doubt and the fact that it's so much easier to leave now because you've already gone through the worst feelings you can go through.
Not sure how much of that made sense but I say leave her and find someone who doesn't give you reason to doubt her. But you also need to control yourself and not look at hers or anyone elses email again. It'll drive you crazy at first but you'll soon realize you hate yourself if you keep looking after her like this. It just makes you look like an insanely controlling and jealous person. I know this because I went down the same road you are going down. I stopped (for the most part) being like that because I didn't want to see myself as that kind of person. Also, it just took too much energy to be on guard all the time. Not to mention it was depressing because you make a lot out of nothing sometimes. Much easier to just accept the love that you get from them and hope that if things aren't working out between you on their end, that they will be mature enough to tell you.
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