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It's funny that you'd say that people remember the good things Seaver, because I tend to forget most of the good and I only remember the bad. I guess I'm weird. I have no problem mentioning stories about my ex. Well, they were once a part of your life. I don't call them my ex, I say their name. If you're natural about it, I don't think it will be such a big deal.
You need ot stop focusing on where she's at and focus on where you're at right now. What do you want for yourself and how can you make that start to happen. Do something you enjoy, just because. For yourself. Go watch a movie with friends, go into a bookstore and buy 5 new books to read and leave feeling pleased with yourself, go get a new haircut, go practice a sport you love, whatever you enjoy. Try not to bring up your ex every 5 minutes, even though sometimes you will mention her. Who cares if she's happy and what she's doing? She's gone...let it go. LIVE your life. It sounds easy but I'm thinking that right now you're not doing that.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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