seethreepo

So I don't know what to do...

LAst night my gf wanted sex and I didnt really want to but went ahead and
started FP. She was reluctant to kiss me much becuase she has a cold sore starting, and while I wasnt really ready I was "ready enough". so we started intercourse and she finnished really quickly. I dont know why but I thought what the hell is she faking ? and then well I couldnt finnish.

she felt horrible I felt worse. to make matters worse when she brought the obvious up (I didnt come) I had to tell her about aformentioned "faking"
thoughts.

Problem is she wasnt faking at all in fact she came all over the bed (she's a squirter!)

so now she thinks (wrongly ) that she doesn turn me on that I dont love her
etc.

I hate myself and have doubts about my masculenity. I mean I was getting some and then couldnt?



I know this is rambling and nonsensical but any help / advice / suggestions / sympathy.
would be welcome.

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