Sanglune

Hi, i'm living a strange situation in my life thoses times and I would like to know if someone have an opinion or an advice on that...

I'm with a girl for 7 years now and we're 3-4 days away from having a baby, that's nice, but there's a problem. Sex... Nah.... not because she's pregnant, the probleme is far older than that...

I have a solid libido... maybe a little high than average guy (and I'm also bi), and she don't have any kind of interest for sex. At first, she simulated for some time, because she didn't want to loose me, but when I found out, I did everything I could to get her to say "no" when she don't want to, that it's important for her to respect herself too.

So... for years, our sexual life was to do it once every 2 saturday night, in the bed before sleeping, 2 same positions... plain vanila thing ! I tough I could survive with that because everything else were good.

I was wrong... I've been tempted many time and I failed to resist... So I cheated my girlfriend (I'm a jerk... I live every day of my life with that in mind), I did it 2 times, I tried to hide it and she found for both time.

Now... She's giving me another chance... because our love is strong... and she hope we'll still build somthing solid for ourself and our baby. But the days are long... almost endless... We're not close like before and I know she need time to forgive me, but I fear things will never get back (and I know that I'll never be sexually satisfied) for the reste of our life.

Now... what I like to have advice on it, is that would it be better for us to just stay friends and live under the same roof, or to continu to fight to get back thing like before I do my mistake ?

Thank.