Sometimes in life we are faced with these excruciating choices between the heart and the mind. I've not been too successful in making these choices, lol. Historically I have gone with my heart...and I now know that my heart is not too good at determining what is best for me.
ie, your mind is probably giving you the best advice. Why is that we must fight so hard to do what is best for ourselves? I don't know...it sucks sometimes, but not nearly as much as finding ourselves at the shit end of a bad decision. Good luck, WK.