Sultana

There is no such thing as a life without regret. There is the regret of "do" or "didn't do", you only get to chose between them. --me

I got married pretty young, although I insisted on finishing college first, for which I am very grateful. At the time, getting married to my husband was the right thing to do.

I guess in a way the only thing I might have done differently is to have gone to the college of my choice in San Diego or San Francisco area rather than to a religious college that met with my parent's approval--I paid for it myself, shouldn't I get to decide where to go?!? But I was 17 when I moved away to college, and didn't have the strength or development of self to fight that particular battle, although many others were fought and won, thank god. I probably could have finished college in 2.5 years instead of 4 (oh yeah, I'd have liked to have started out with the major I ended up graduating with) and accumulated less debt.

There are things now that I do wish that I could experience, frankly, but that would effectively end the marriage, which I am unwilling to do, heh.

One always gives up things, there is no one person you can marry and have everything exactly the way you want it forever. I remind myself of this and try to avoid the "Grass is Greener" syndrome, which is so cliche yet devistatingly effective. I'm sure if I was single and doing whatever I want, I'd hate being alone at night, no one to help me with things, etc.

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"Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath.
At night, the ice weasels come." -

Matt Groening

My goal? To fulfill my potential.