Thanks analog,
You are right, it only takes one party to not be 100 % for the relationship for it not to work or to cause resentment to build and such. It will be hard to keep from wanting to see her but it will be for the best.
She does owe herself some time after her long marriage and hard divorce.
And i am leaning towards just keeping communication to pleasantries every now and then, instead of trying to be friends right off the bat. I think the more space in the beginning she has the better it will be. I hope at least it will give us a little distance, give her time to miss me, and once the emotions settle a bit we can start on the path to being friends.
It is damn hard to put her off my mind though, we were suppose to go to the chili peppers tomorrow
. I know she will have a good time since it is one of her favorites. Things are still fresh and of course there are little reminders of her everywhere i look. I know in time these things fade, I know i have been heartbroken before but i guess i forgot just how much it can hurt. It never seems to get any easier even though you know you will make it out ok heh.
Well i am off to clinical i know she is working today at the hospital, but i don't have to work on her unit today. It will be hard not to want to have lunch but i will do my best to focus in the operating room, maybe the blood and gore will keep my mind off her a bit.