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Suzz04 · 02-04-2007, 09:22 AM

I had to do alot of thinking on this one. And I do mean alot. There are alot of things that I have now that I wouldn't have because of my mistakes. I'm 30 now and here's what I would tell my 20 year old self.

You are bipolar. You will have along time in figuring this out. No matter what you try once you find out you are, nothing will work other than medicine. Get this started and life will be alot less stressful with the constant maniac/depress swings. (and i do mean constant by 2-4 episodes in a month)

Don't run away. Tell mom and dad you're leaving. Do the marriage... have the kid.. then get out. Don't let him talk you into waiting til after Christmas to leave. Do it right then in October, not January.

Don't date Marty. Nothing good came of it. And at then end he was dangerous when you spend 6 months trying to get it through to him that you don't want to be dating anymore. But, you might have to do this anyway to get to the next step in life.

Do go back to college the second time. If you don't you'll not have met Bill. You'll spend 5 years with him. And you'll learn some very hard lessons. At the end don't let your "best friend" move in with you. That's what killed the relationship even with the "open" relationship going on. He will completely ingore you at that point when she moves in and you'll have a nervous breakdown and kick them both out of your lives.

Be strong. You'll face going to the hospital to get help after you've tried commiting suicide. You'll find peace while you're there. They will help you beyond what you think they can. Trust in the Pysch. He knows exactly how to help us and has.

To my future self, I have no idea what's to come right now. I'm slowly rebuilding my own life and trying to live MY life while helping my daughter live hers. I won't dare attempt a relationship for a least a year so I can make sure that I am confident in myself as well as have myself under control and know who I really am.

One day in 5 years...10 ... I'll come back and read this and realize that I just might have been on to something with staying relationship free til I'm ready to go again.

02-04-2007, 09:22 AM	#53 (permalink)
Suzz04 Crazy Location: Virginia	I had to do alot of thinking on this one. And I do mean alot. There are alot of things that I have now that I wouldn't have because of my mistakes. I'm 30 now and here's what I would tell my 20 year old self. You are bipolar. You will have along time in figuring this out. No matter what you try once you find out you are, nothing will work other than medicine. Get this started and life will be alot less stressful with the constant maniac/depress swings. (and i do mean constant by 2-4 episodes in a month) Don't run away. Tell mom and dad you're leaving. Do the marriage... have the kid.. then get out. Don't let him talk you into waiting til after Christmas to leave. Do it right then in October, not January. Don't date Marty. Nothing good came of it. And at then end he was dangerous when you spend 6 months trying to get it through to him that you don't want to be dating anymore. But, you might have to do this anyway to get to the next step in life. Do go back to college the second time. If you don't you'll not have met Bill. You'll spend 5 years with him. And you'll learn some very hard lessons. At the end don't let your "best friend" move in with you. That's what killed the relationship even with the "open" relationship going on. He will completely ingore you at that point when she moves in and you'll have a nervous breakdown and kick them both out of your lives. Be strong. You'll face going to the hospital to get help after you've tried commiting suicide. You'll find peace while you're there. They will help you beyond what you think they can. Trust in the Pysch. He knows exactly how to help us and has. To my future self, I have no idea what's to come right now. I'm slowly rebuilding my own life and trying to live MY life while helping my daughter live hers. I won't dare attempt a relationship for a least a year so I can make sure that I am confident in myself as well as have myself under control and know who I really am. One day in 5 years...10 ... I'll come back and read this and realize that I just might have been on to something with staying relationship free til I'm ready to go again. __________________ Quantum Cat Theory: Upon hearing the sound of a can being opened, it becomes possible for a cat to travel faster than the speed of light.