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		 abaya, 
 
i don't think you should feel too awkward about having a lot of vanilla (ie, sub anal sex) practices turn you on.  i'd posit that there is a reason that they are "vanilla."  because a lot of people like to do it, over a long period of time.   
 
oh, and gilda -- no reason to be ashamed, although of course i understand that you have particular issues that lead to such a result.  its kind of weird for me to think about your situation - i can't really do much of the 'fantasy' stuff...i'm too much of an engineer to get into it, really.  i know that i'm still the same little pigglet, regardless of whether i'm playing vlad the conqueror or frank ponch or whatnot.  so i think its very interesting, if nothing else just from the recognition that its a reality in your life. 
 
abaya, i think its funny that you consider anal vanilla.  is that because of your evangelical roots / it's ok as long as its not in the vagina stuff?  i know a lot of people for whom casual anal would be anathema. 
		
		
		
		
		
			
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