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No, it's mostly anything beyond what I was taught as an evangelical to be correct and godly behavior between two Christian adults. I am not joking. Which means that I identify a lot with Jozrael and Gilda in the religion and shame factors.

For me, kinky is often anything beyond anal sex (I thought that was IT, when it happened... nothing more beyond that). And I do a lot more than that, now. But it doesn't always turn me on, even if I do it... because I'm still trying to figure out what turns me on. So far, most of my turn-ons are extremely vanilla, and I guess I feel a bit awkward about that. I try new things, but a lot of it is going through the motions.

And no, this isn't about getting new ideas. Believe me, we have tons of ideas. Books, videos, toys, everything. It's just a matter of me actually feeling comfortable, let alone turned on, by some of these things.

EDIT: Jozrael, I think your posts are great, especially your explanation of how you have evolved here... it sounds a lot like my own journey. I appreciate what you have to say, experience or not.

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