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Well, the semester has started. Things are going as usual. It is clear that there is no hope for things to improve here. I'm left with 2 options.
#1. Tough it out here - I've dealt with 6.5 years of hell (high school and college). Hopefully I can make it through 1.5 more. However, that will be yet another 1.5 years of my life wasted having been spent totally miserable. After graduation I can go for my masters at a REAL college in a civilized area while working. Logically this option would be the best, but I dont know if I can emotionally take it.
#2. Give up my scholarship and transfer out. I would likely lose credits and most likely end up spending 2 more years in college instead of 1.5. Its hard for me to justify this financially, especially since it is a huge gamble with both my money, my future, and my happiness. However, if it worked out, I would not only have a better degree/education than what I'm getting here (my school is one of the absolute worst), I would be in a different, more diverse environment and may actually make friends. I may not be so lonely and therefore might be happy. I have no idea how I would afford to do this.
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