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I have recurring nightmares too.
In the first part of my dreams, I am always with friends and family. One by one I discover that they are actually against me and betraying me. The details of this vary from dream to dream, but that's the gist of it. Eventually I am alone.
I suddenly realise I am alone for what feels like the longest time. I go around looking for help, and there's no one on the streets (a bit like Vanilla Sky). My phone has no connection.
Suddenly, I hear people behind me and suddenly I'm being chased. I can never quite see them, but I am running as fast as I can, to get away. I run faster and faster but they are gaining on me, and I daren't turn around... and then they catch me. I usually wake up around this point.
I'm also afraid of the dark. I sleep with my light on, tight against the wall in corner of my bed, with my duvet over my head. Sometimes when I wake up at night, I am terrified to get up to go to the toilet, often staying in bed paralysed, desperately trying to hold the pee in.
I actually went out and bought a bed which has a divan so that nothing could hide under my bed to grab my legs at night if I have to go to the toilet. I still jump from my bed to the far corner of my room.
It's very childish and I feel quite ashamed of my behaviour sometimes, it makes no sense. The best part of being in a relationship for me is just the security of having someone else there with me in bed.
I'm glad it's not just me.
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