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I think you're his little secret - that he's scared, or embarrassed, or unwilling to share. I couldn't say why, though I can make a few guesses.
His new girlfriend has already indicated in some way or another that she doesn't like him to hang out with "girl" friends, or have friends who are exes. You may not be an ex but you are a girl. So maybe he's afraid of her reaction to his having a female best friend. I'm not sure but I don't think it's the norm - please correct me if I'm wrong.
The other possibility is that deep down, he has some feelings for you, but is unwilling to admit it. So he shuts you out to try and fully live this new relationship.
Or, he could be like a lot of girls I know, who when they enter into a new relationship are so absorbed by the wonder of everything they completely neglect everything else. They usually come back some time later, when the glowing phase has passed.
I don't think there's much you can do except wait and get on with your life. And also you can hold it against him...or not. One thing though - if you meddle in his relationship with her now, when he's still in the first stages of love, he will probably never forgive you for it.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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