Thanks for the information, ratbastid. I woke up this morning around 3:00 AM because I couldn't stop thinking about that. It bothers me that it could be a medical condition because I know the causes. I know what causes me to be so afraid, so it's a matter of me stopping those.
One thing that I've been thinking about, over the past hour, is that I take myself way too seriously. When I used to have decent friends in middle school, I was a very happy go-lucky kid. Then, as the tension in my house got worse, I became very angry and sad. Those feelings were then quelled through needing to feel accepted at school. That feeling of being accepted came via the girl I fixated on and athletics. Whenever someone put me down in high school, I took it very seriously.
So, I think what I need to do is not take a lot of things so seriously.
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