dalnet22

Thanks, people. Today was a nightmare for me - lately I've been so worried about how my hair looks. The first 19 years of my life I never cared. Then, as soon as people pointed it out, I became acutely aware of it.

That, and I really struggle in situations where people are looking at me. I'm afraid of looking nice because I'm worried I'll do something wrong, and those people who're looking will be like "damn, he's not as good as he could have been." I can't laugh at myself because I'm so worried about looking the way I want. I find it so hard to accept less than what I want. It's like I'm giving in when I could put a little more effort in to look ok.

But, when I'm out with people I feel comfortable with, I can laugh and not worry if I don't look perfect. I'm just extremely insecure because I have nobody on my side.

Also... if I had a girlfriend who appreciated me the way I am, I wouldn't care at all how I looked. In fact, I would be secure in all facets. That's really the big concern, I think. I'm so worried I won't find a girl who likes me unless I look the way I want. If I'm walking around looking like a joke, why would any girl (that is my type) be attracted to me?