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OK, I've read both of your posts, and first and foremost, I completely agree with Abaya. If you're having frequent thoughts of suicide, you need to get help immediately. You need to face that problem immediately and fully. None of us here are qualified to act as any sort of remote counselor, and while we may have advice for the remainder of your life, you need help from someone who's qualified to deal with that kind of problem.
After reading your second email, it sounds to me like your parents are part of the problem. You are an adult now. If you want to take on the financial burden of your education, you can legally do so. They have no rights over you except for the ones you give them. As I see it, you have three options:
#1 - stay where you are but make a concerted effort to branch out into new activities and classes. Find a class that requires a group project and use that to meet new people. Invite them over for a BBQ or out for dinner or something during or after the project. Go out for a sport that doesn't have cuts (track and cross country teams typically don't cut anyone).
#2 - Transfer to a nearby school that's far enough away that you'd have to live in a dorm. The University of Arkansas in Fayetteville or Little Rock immediately spring to mind. Both of them are far enough away that commuting doesn't make any sense. Yes, it will cost you more money, but you'll also most likely end up with a degree that's worth more, which is really what you're after anyway. Once you're living in the dorm there, you'll meet the folks on your floor, in class, in the dining hall, at church (if that's your thing) and in the streets.
#3 - Transfer to a school as far away from home as possible so you can completely start over. One of the great things about going away to school is that you can completely reinvent yourself. There won't be anyone who remembers the time in the 4th grade that you farted in the middle of the school play (um, not that I did or anything), and you can choose to turn the story into an amusing anecdote. There's a lot more risk involved here because you're basically working outside the safety net you have now, but the rewards are potentially greater.
Regardless, you have to change something and you have to take some risks.
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