I double checked your name a few times just to make sure I hadn't posted this in my sleep.
I've tried to answer this a few times, and all I ended up doing was elaborating on my own situation. If anybody out there has some answers I'd be happy to hear them. At times I've looked at various options just to get the fuck out and contemplate what I'm doing with my life - peace corps, marines corps, but the peace corp takes months to get back to you with no guarantees and the marines, well, that's kind of its own problem.
My solution at this point has been to switch from what I was doing (if you could have called it that) to the major that required the least to graduate and then move on from that. That is, to think short term instead of long term, while I attempt to take a stab at planning the long term.
The way I figure is, high school sucked, college sucked even worse because everyone else was having so much fun, but there's still the rest of my life, you know? Sure, I don't fit in. I didn't before, what was I expecting? I don't want to fit in. I hate these people. I hate all the cute little subdivisions of Americana, and it's inescapable. Nearly everybody I knew from high school went to college, ergo...you either pick one and attempt to conform or give up the ghost.
So I'm trying to find something I enjoy. And fuck the rest of the world. And hopefully through my struggle I will become a better, more fulfilled person, and they will spend the rest of their lives wishing they were back in college. So fuck that mentality, and fuck 'em all.
By the way, the difference between my reply and ghoastgirl's is like a picture perfect case study in male / female psychology. That said, her advice is far better.
Last edited by hrandani; 12-20-2006 at 09:29 PM..
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